IFJM 20/April/2015

Monday, 20th April — I'm dreading K.'s appointment tomorrow, I'm afraid he will see no significant improvement.

IFJM 19/April/2015

Sunday, 19th April — I'm exhausted. Perhaps they're right and they know better. 

IFJM 16/April/2015

Thursday, 16th April — Some areas are restricted to the guests now so I'm not able to roam when and wherever I please. Less chances to find unexpected things to draw. 

IFJM 15/April/2015

Wednesday, 15th April — I'm not enjoying my baths anymore. Tried to talk to K. to no avail. 

IFJM 12/April/2015

Sunday 12th April — How stubborn my brain can be. Insists in adapting the reality to what it thinks it is. 

My brain does not care about truths. Its only interest is definition, sharp edges, the limits in shapes. 

My eyes try to speak louder but my hands keep moving, confused.

Brain always wins.

IFJM 11/April/2015

Saturday 11th April -- I found the sewing room but didn't feel like entering. I walked outside instead and sat on a bench near the windows.

A garden's worker got me this onion as he walked past me. Too lazy to go and get my paints so I just drew. 

IFJM 10/April/2015

Friday 10th April — An uninterrupted night's sleep. K. suggested I should try some other classes besides my occasional drawing and painting sessions. 

I'm not sure I will. The bath session was all right, enjoyable even but I'm not so sure I need to fill my days with more activities. Just walking in the gardens and enjoying some quite time seem to be a comfort enough for me.